The other night I had a fascinating dream, and I want to share it with you. I was climbing up a rock wall, it looked similar to the ones you see at those indoor fun parks, but it was much taller. As I began climbing it, I was going fast and was determined. I came to a point that seemed either the middle or close to the top of the rock wall. I slowed down because I had a decision to make. The handles I needed to grab were spread out, and there was only one to my left and a flat surface that I believe had a ledge at the top, but it seemed very far, almost out of reach. I immediately got scared because it was almost like I had nowhere else to go. So, I reached to my left, and I grabbed the handle, but I couldn’t get a secure grip that would make me feel like I could advance. The moment I grabbed the handle to my left and toyed with the idea of letting go of the other handle that my hand was already on to my right, I was seized with great fear. I didn’t know what to do, so I stayed there gripping the wall, thinking if I took a chance and reached up to this handle and tried to grab the other one, I would fall. I didn’t have a harness on, which meant I would fall to my death. The more I thought about it, the more fearful I became. All I could remember was thinking about what it would feel like if my head hit the ground. I stared at the handle to my left. I looked up to see the smooth surface with nothing to grab, and I knew the top was near, but I was so scared to take the risk of grabbing that handle and quickly reaching up. So, I stayed there in fear I didn’t move, and then I woke up.
The dilemma
What did this dream mean? It meant a whole lot, and it is significant for my journey, and I’m probably sure you can take something away applicable for your journey. Anytime you advance in the kingdom, you will meet challenges. Those challenges you encounter allow you to practice everything you have been preparing for up until that point. My faith is strong, and I trust God 100%; however, I’ve been met with a few tasks bigger than myself. One I am more comfortable with than the other. If I trust God and have this much faith, why am I fearful of advancing? I don’t think I’m afraid of advancing, but somewhat uncertain about how things will play out. I have an important choice to make according to the dream. I can trust God and reach up toward the next thing. Or I can stay stuck where I’m presently, but I can only stay there long before I lose strength and fall backward. Not backward as far as sin, but progress. Did I really come this far not to keep going? This is an important question, and you must ask yourself the same thing. Will you move forward, or will you stay where you are?
What will I choose
If I am being honest and transparent, I am wrestling with myself. I will choose to keep moving forward and tackle these bigger things in front of me, but I am wrestling with myself as to when. The time is now, and I have to get moving. I can’t wait until all the circumstances are right or my mind officially accepts it. What is faith if we don’t act upon it? God always gives us things that are bigger than ourselves. If he gives us something we can handle on our own, what need will we have for him? So I have to get over myself and my self-limiting beliefs, and I have to move forward. If I don’t, I will never know what could have been. This is the same for you. No need to worry; I know God is in the midst of everything. I know you may be scared, and I am too! So let’s do it scared and see what happens! I know it will be great!
